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August 5, 2016
by Janos
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Slices of Life: It’s Never Enough

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Sitting on the porch, watching the silver coin sun crawl across the cloudy sky, falling asleep for a few minutes of weird, disturbing dreams time after time. Feeling tense, alienated, thoroughly frustrated, the trees hiss like the wind was driving in some epiphany that’ll probably blow past me. This scenery I have seen daily for months suddenly appears alien. The sun brightens for a moment and birds explode into a weird manic chorus of chirping, I keep replaying a song from YouTube, an earworm for the day. I should delete my Facebook account, that thing drains my thoughts, and concentrate on refilling myself with books and movies. Not quite there but closer than ever. I should be more social, go out more, hit the movies, go to the library, go to gigs, have more sex, and always, always write more, create more. “It’s never enough”, like Frank Cotton said. There are lyrics hammering the inside of my skull but there’s no use trying to write them down, since I don’t have the band they’re meant for. A huge damn flock of swallows, 30 or 40 of them is harassing a crow, driving it across the sky. I’d like to flip a table, but I guess I’ll just go inside, pop the nightly cocktail of pills that amongst other things kick the pain med withdrawal back a step, turn on the glowy rectangle, anchor myself on someone else’s stories, and hate myself a bit for it.

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June 20, 2016
by Janos
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2015 – The Year of Awesome Success, Too Many Goodbyes and One Snapped Neck

2015 was a year that saw me enjoy the best summer of my adult life and bid farewell to a bunch of people, the capital region, a relationship that came with two awesome cats, an awesome apartment and a very important corner of the net, and finished with my luck finally running out in the form of one broken neck.

Oon meripeikko hä-rä-räh-hää!

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Working on Sundays doesn't always suck. I love piloting the boats, and the fact that I could follow my skill in that getting steadily better through the summer.

August 24, 2015
by Janos
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The Summer of Marine Biology – aka The Best Summer Ever

I have spent this summer working as a nature surveyor and a scientific diver for Metsähallitus, a state apparatus which is responsible for the protected areas in nature as well as dealing with forestry. A job like this is something I’ve been working towards for some time now. Do you know that feeling of really wanting something and building it up as you wait for things to happen – and when you get in, it’s even more awesome than you expected? I do now.

Photo: Metsähallitus / Suvi Saarnio

Photo: Metsähallitus / Suvi Saarnio

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